i don't know why, but lately after i posted that SUPER DUPER sad post,
i am begining to have a phobia of posting.
maybe because i dun wan the same thing to happen to other ppl about my aunt,
or
i have finally opened up and really expressed my true feelings for the first time on blog so maybe i feel awkward.
but i really do hope i do not have this phobia anymore, i hope it will lessen down and i can post without feeling wierd.
haha cause i really wanna continue to blog :D

anyway, i bet u have realised now, that my SKIN HAS CHANGED!!!
yepp! its simple yet sophisticated lol. thats in my point of view lah!
i dunno about others haha.
but i still feel that something is missing in my blog, maybe i will find out very soon (: yea!

SHOUTOUT! : okok today is jason hoon's bday! , happy bday hoon! you're fifteen! grats!

okok, today nothing much though ):
& i really wanna thank one person , thats...
LUKE! yayyy... LOL. =\
well he read my sad post and found out his caring side, he smsed me and comforted me!
thanks luke! (: you're the best caring friend i've eva met.
i also wanna thank
denise & scott for asking me to cheer up,
i did not do that post just to get simpathy but i really had to express my sadness somehow, and so i blogged it, so do not get the wrong idea!

oh ya! i dunno whether its me or not but right now, imeen is not working! i can't hear the song i want to hear D: hope its better later.. (:

ok so after class (had to stay back AGAIN for CHINESE cause had to copy down corrections) , then met up with some E4 ppl :D
i really do miss the e4 gang, cause they were like my closest buds!
we laughed and as usual made fun of TURBS & DARKIES LOL!! =X
ahem ahem forefather of racism here ;x ;\
hope mantej dosen;t read it LOL!!!
haha played around, olay here olay there =\ then we wanted to go to macs, but some ppl did not go like DAWSON?! , DYLAN?! and JETH (jeth i can understand, he had a grudge against someone, but nbm la! relax ok jeth? [= )

anyway me, sianglong (another forefather) , wenping and jerald went to macs lol.
then we ate ate ate, me and siang long started playing =="
he put salt in almost in all my sauces, like...
TOMATO
CHILLI
MAYO
CURRY
BBQ

lols! yea. then went back home.
now i'm posting lor ;p

Things to do later :
- chem HW
- TRY hist HW LOL!
- revise for POA trial balance
- reflection time for RC :D

WORRIES FOR TMR! :
- POA TEST (trial balance)
- Red Cross interview ><
wish me luck lols! <3

nothing much ler..
okok bbuais~ (:

yea!
i've still not gotten over about my aunt today & i doubt i will.
unless ... ok nbm.
yay! i think i just found some cool skins! yay!
will be changing the skins from effect starting next week :D

haha. and seriously the tagbox, i sometimes don't really understand on wad you say. and see if you see my profile, i'm a melacholic, so i sometimes get pissed with some comments some of you put, so if you dun really make yourself clear, i get a little agitated. so ya(:
tmr's back to sch, starting to pack up now and go to slp.
tmr i have to study for POA cause theres a test on tues x.x"

oh ya, if u have noticed i added the song what hurts the most in my last post cause i feel it really adds to the mood by reading it (: xD
haha cause daniel my kor suddenly talked to me and asked me to see this song via youtube and LOL it seemed too much of a coincidence. but anyway i've decided to put the song up cause that post for me is a really true and sad post i don't really know what you guys think but yea for me, it is a really sad one.

oh ya some special late night thx now..! :
thx denise for teaching me how to put the imeen song into my post! thx alot ya! :D
&
thx daniel kor for inspiring me with the song
( i guess it really is like god's will haha , maybe his reading my blog LOL! xD)

ok thats all for now,
signing off~

haix, feeling a lil depressed today.
cause of my aunt, although its her bday,
she is still suffering from somthing.
we celebrated her bday at the hospital,
many cried, some were quiet but no one smiled.
it was until that sad period where the atmosphere was less tense.
the cake was brought, candles were litted up, plates were all put around.
the more bday songs we sang, everyone still cried.
it was really a sad birthday. after everything, everyone began to calm down and i talked to my aunt. my aunt was really worried and telling me to take care of my sisters and be a good boy and do my work well. i felt so sad as she was just like my second mother. she watched me grow up from a lil baby till now and she was soo closed to me! i lived with her, she gave me money, she rewarded me. it was as if she was like my real mother. i had a heart to heart talk to her telling her that its time to relax and let go of everything then she can depared peacefully. i really dun wan her to leave but if its God's will, i have absoulute trust in him that something nice will happen despite her leaving us. people who were there with her all finally knew the truth.
i will know work hard knowing that she will always be there for me whether here or up there!
i love you a yi, and i want the best for you. i'll continue to pray for you and i want you to feel happy always. going through this suffering now is like walking in a dark forest but once you have walked through the forest something nice will be waiting for you. just live everything up to the good lord ayi. its time to relax and slowly let go of everything. you will always be in my heart and no matter what you will always be my ayi. iloveyouayi, i really do and because i love you, trust and believe in the lord, i'm sure he wants the best for you too ayi. i really hate to see you cry because when you cry all of us all feels it..
please lord, take the cup of suffering away from ayi and hopefully a mirical happens to her please lord i beg you...

still now... despite being at home now and posting this post i feel still disheartened and cry softly at times. maybe it is time for all of us to stay relaxed and give up everything and let the lord decide what is actually best for us before all of us feel peacefull at heart.

i love you ayi and you will always be in my heart.....

OMG!

totally random i finally completed some things in my blog :D

phew ~_~

BUT! the "diary" i think is suppose to be for the gal, cause got all the kawaii thing LOL.

dam paiseh la ><



but i'll try to get a new skin cause first, the words are like really small and i think i wan mine to be withought those buttons haha.

but that will be wayyy later unless again, someone constantly asks me to do but then again see how cause i am super duper busy.



gosh, i keep saying i'm really busy. i really am LOL.



haix, exam coming ler better start to study ler sian TT , i scared i dun do well SOBSOB ]:

jiayou gene! hehe i will be saying the students prayer i think it will help i hope ><



well today was like slacking but trying to study but i could not =x

had POA lesson today, 9am-11am lol 9/11 =x ANYWAY~ i was late by 10min then must do 20 pumping , hehe thank god mr tuang forget i think or he let go LOL.

then had lunch, special herbal soup ^^ anti stress soup. like i said i very busy so very stress yea. so the soup really calmed me down. now i really plan to really start to calm down and plan things straight. and take one step at a time yea..

then i slept for like awile, after that ... den-den-den-den (the sound effect)
MATH TUITION LOL.
haha not so bad la my math tuition actually my tuitor is my uncle haha. so he can slack abit here and there. but he really is a good teacher (: he help me to improve my grades so much!
SHOUTOUT : THX UNCLE _ _ _ _ _ _ (: YOU ROX!
okok.. back to post, then we had a little break haha i tried to start to talk about life then slowly slowly he fell into my trap haha! but anyway i can talk for as long as i wan cause he also free ==" like the tuition suppose to be from 3-5 then nowadays is like stretch to 6 or 6.30 LOL pro right?
then revision about bearings today and learn about the 3D drawings.

after that had com time :D
then bla bla bla,
watching naruto & d grayman now haha. dam cool la naruto & dgrayman my fav animes currently :D

that should be all about todae, nothing special i guess.
& tmr's my aunt's bday.. happy bday belated ayi! :D (i<3u)

ok now i try do my work ler
byes~ [:

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just a quick post!
thx luke!! thx a mil, you helped me so much! :D
with all the thingi x.x and big HUHA that is!

and jeth for helping me find skin and give tips (:

thx guys! :DD

checks :
- music -> only available when you go to my tag box TT dunno why.
- photo -> LAZY ;P soon lar soon..
- more links -> tag me your link & i'll link you up! (:
- maybe change skin LAZY ;o & when i finally found a nice one i'll change the skin (:
- more CUSTOMISATION LOL.! haha tried ler ;o
- more about me section quite done! :D

haha okok, signing off (:

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yoyo! [:
now i finding the skin and tag box and the rest and to basically CUTOMISE my blog :D
then i'll put the link on my msn and comfirm will bee HOO HAA! LOL.
anyway only jeth knows about my blog, and he is helping me alot, thx jeth! [:

about todae, nothing much though.
just during POA lesson, mr tuang again thought poa then he "ask me" cause his voice is like super duuperr loud so the entire class can heear la, LOL.
so he ask me "gene did you copy?"
and i'm like should i tell the truth or not, made a decision and ya, i told the truth!
gene : "YES I DID"
mr tuang " oh ok, cause i saw someone's (jerald) LOL =x paper look the same as yours. then i dunno whether to give you the well done or not. GENE! so dissapointing"
omg and i'm like er ohh... ><

haha at least i told the truth =p but anyways mr tuang is dissapointed with me and the whole class knows that ==" i must do well! and do proud for mr tuang to take away my title of mr-tuang-is-very-dissapointed-with-me . yea! BASHA GENE!

then today SS, mr chng never come so the 3 red cross ppl came to a talk about who going to be what or bla bla bla. haha the BIG3 from 3E6 [: yea!
haha, had alot of contradictions and alot of ok yea i think he will be that kind of thing. but anway its not going to be us choosing but the NCOs, so jy! :D

then nothing much along the way... *whisles*

then after school, me and jerald decided to wait for the people taking their interviews todae for red cross. first to went was Jason then Andy then WenPing then Zhen Zhong and lastly Weijue.
wahh lol first was jason, then he was like dam hard ah! scary!
then andy came out, he was super duper depressed from the look of his face LOL.
i guess the questions were really hard, like something about lots and lots of LINK questions x.x"
omg! how? my interview nxt tuesday leh x.x" oh ya btw, this interview is about our posts in red cross haha. so all the best for those people who toook their interviews todae =D.

then in between while waiting, (had to wait from like 3 to 5.30) lol. we found this air refreshener. haha it was super fun! we play play play until no more =P then it was like little snow flakes! i'm deprived from snow flakes, so like we PLAY PLAY PLAY LOL. spray here spray there and lots of running here and their haha.

when eugene & the rest came back from the cancelled first aid duty, we sprayed that on eugene for like a "welcome back" kind of thing, haha it was super hilarious! ;o
we also sprayed the "snow maker" on the interviewees who came out for like GRATS!! HURAY!! YOU'RE DONE!! haha.

anyway, the questions i heard where chim! scary! then me, andy, jerald and wenping. went to the bubble tea shop bought BBT [: on the way to the BBTS, me and andy debated abt some red cross issues haha. the LITERATURE vs the AMATH. of course i kind of won and yea [: LIT WON! =D

then me and andy and jerald started to talk about some red cross things. and jerald went up his bus, so me and andy continued the talk lol.
THEN we talk talk talk and settled some red cross issues (: hell yea about that!~

then went back home and now finding the skins lor. lol.

sian, tmr got speech day rehersal thing, must bring full U then must have xiong xiong training!
jy! and i know have to observe how i and some other people do their thing during red cross to prepare to how to ans or couter back the questions tha tthe NCOs will bombard me with i think haha.

anyway bb~ [:
(luke teaching me now how to do the blog thingi haha)

HELLOS!!
finally a blog! ;D
well actually i had one, but that was a little dead and i talked about my past so bla bla.
aint like that. okok.
well i had SOO many things that was so interesting lately but now i cant remember TT, so lets start what happen today (:

Again as usual went back to school, then heng i never see nor hayati if not she will GENEIE WHY NEVER CUT YOUR HAIR?! SLC YOU KNOW!
number 1, i am not genie, i am GENE, for gods sake.
any way.. lessons still continued, then during SLC recess, i ate a plate of fried rice and cause i ate slow .. bla bla i was last. then had to put everything into my mouth. lol. sati was like laughing lah! my mouth so big lols. ;O

then came the last lesson -CHINESE! our teacher mdm foong or wadever it is, like omg she keeps SHOUTING AND SCEAMING! LORD GOD SAVE ME! LOL. =X
then cause my chinese is like very bad, but i am still striving in CL not B , she keeps indirectly insulting me like for EVERY LESSON! she's like sooo bad!

after the big hu-ha lessons, finally !
but ...
for the first time in my life, i have never made so hard and so big decisions before!
there were 3.
1) GO MACS WITH MY VERY VERY GOOD FRIENDS! ( i really wanted that!)
2) do SS project
3) help out in FDA

in the end, i went for the SS project. i really feel dam sad lah, cause like i never gone out with the "2E4" peeps for a LONG LONG time. and i feel that i really should have gone, but anyway whats done has been done haiz!

anyway we went to Ivan's house to do the project. lol lah! me and Ivan started to play X-box then after that it was Zeon's & Jason's turn.
all in all, i started to do the project like yea. like total concentraition la! all by my self, with the help of my SS assesment book =D. anyway i thank god that we finally done it (: yea!
now it just needs a little touch up here and there and TADA! its done! [:

we left Ivan's house at like 7pm? after taking 410 and 53, i reached around my house at like 7.50 argh!! then i went to cut my hair, like OMG! my FRINGE NOW IS TOTALLY GONE!! I REPEAT G-O-N-E! haha i bet nor hayati will be very happy LOL and i'll pass the Cut hair test =x

went back home and ate a very late dinner then i found out something, i dun really want to say cause it'll make me cry all over again TT but anyway that matter is like truely dam sad! )':

then just now i didn't really wanna create the blog until much later, haha but jeth motivated my to create the blog which i wanted to do for a long long time! so here it is! LOL. thx JETH! (:

and here am i, sitting in front of my destop com and typing and thinking what happend during the day.

gosh i think this is going to be a LONG LONG post lol.

but here's a few things...
- HI GUYS! I'M GENE EZRA! =)
- i will be getting the tag box, skin, music later once i am really really free cause nowadays somehow i am coming back dam late and like i am dam tired.
- this is my very first post and i hope i haven't dissapointed any of you ><
- and hopefully i continue to blog lol cause i scared i too tired to blog =P but i will TRY my best (:

i think thats all about it FOR NOW! (: lolx
BYEEE~

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