wah wah!
just finished watching
naruto move 4!
quite ok lah!
haha in the end very nice!
you guys to start to folow NARUTO!
ITSS GGOOOOOOOOOOOOD! (:

oh fcuk!
my indian neighbours are soooo noisy!
play sooo loud indian music -,-
ARGH!

omg!

today was chinese!
haha!
totally screwed!
-,-

TMRS, TMRS, EXAMS IS....
SOCIAL STUDIES & POA P2

yea!
tmr's may day..
sooo goood!
so can start revisisng ^^

ok i better start pulling out
a whole bunch of revision papers for POA :D
&
for SS,
scan through my assesement book!

hahas yea!

BOL EVERYONE! <3

heeeeeelow!

today was English paper.
P1 was ok (:
but P2 - total fcuked up!
x_x

but whats done is done lol.

tmr is CHINESE LANGUAGE
dam! like i am freakin weak in chinese?!
COMFIRM FAIL!
LIKE SERIOUSLY! NO DOUBT ABT IT LOL.

ate a huge lunch!
sooo full!

going to do my chinese ler.
- remember format
- read through the situational writing
- TRY 1 paper

(:

byes byes!

HAIX! i miss my ayi so much! ):

hi!

*// hey Eugene! Thx FOR THE ULP BOOK ^^ 谢谢！啊！(:
*// lukeeee! :D stay strong ok? (: & don't worry abt that friend abt in ur blog k? (:

OMG! was like almost late!
run run run! -,-
sweat sweat sweat!
dammm! LOL!

then Eugene talked to me about the proposal and stuff,
thx Eugene ^^

today..
hmm preety boring & tiring.
i don't know why like know a days i feel sooo tired & sleepy!
my gawd!
so exausted! D:

anyway..
today nth much!
just like revision all the way?

after school went to macs with jerald,
half way while reaching macs met aaron!
hahas hellos aaron! 8D
went to buy a double cheese burger meal!
yumm! (:

went back,
slept (see i told you i'm like freakin tired)
then woke up by my mum & went down to the dental clinic to get my retainers.
^^ style sia!
but pain! cut my gum -,-
but yea the retainers i need to wear for a long long long long long time!
to mantain my STYLISH TEETH! =D
same as scott one lol.
o.O

now i'm blogging & tmrs the English paper!
shiiit! i don't feel confident! D<
dammm!!! and like i really need to revise ler!

to all people out there who are taking their exams or are in the middle of theirs!
REVISE!
don't be like me - neh revise! x.x"
i really do hope i can do well! T___T
i feeel so nervous! sob sob! ):

ok gtg eat my dinner then after that i'll look through the formats and try one english paper ^^

BYE! (:

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS =DDD

today for lunch when out with my close family!
but this time inclusive of my aunt & Godpa (close)

today is one week after ayi's death!
its sad but yea.
i can't really imagine that its all done and time flys soo fast!
but oh well, i still can get to see her in IHM (':
i miss you ayi! <3

ok anyway.. back to the lunch!
went to the restaurent!
very nice!
HK stlyle.
close bonding session ^^












yea.. (:
nice time yea.. nice food ^^

ok soo.. went back home.. waited until 2.30
then had dentist app.
and...
I REMOVED MY BRACES PEOPLE! =D CHHHEEEEEEEEEEEESEEE! =DDD ^^ <3

so happy ^^

hahas, so yea better START ON REVISION AND HOMEWORK!
BBUAIS!
<3

heeeeeeeeelos!

SATURDAY!

today went out..to..
SWENSENS :DDDDD







lunch with family! (:

ate lamb chop & lots of ice cream ^^

then went to breadtalk to buy cheese cake!
(sry no pic, ate it all up! =X)

haha then ownself went home!

did somee hw,

then had tuition,
revise the entire SA1 topics.

then now blogging (:

i better do my WORK AND CONCENTRATE!
DAMIT BECAUSE I AM NOT! ):

SHIIIIIIIIIT YOU MR GENE EZRA LEE! DO YOUR WORK YOU ****ER! D;

ok bbuias! (:

hellos peeps! :P
didn't blog yst cause like super tired?!
yea.

so this is for FRIDAY!

had a lil meeting for the project, like cause of the schudule mr low send us
this week actually must meet our facil
so yea that was the meeting abt, suppose to think of wad we say & stuff,
in the end dun have -,-
WHY?
cause mr lee not here!
zzz!! thats for choosing a principal as ur facil!
that fella will be hell of a busy person!
so i hope can really work well, T.T

yst was like the last day of lessons, not really but so called.
had to clear out my desk!
dam! so much and heavy x.x"
anyway..
the main thing that happened was the staying back D:
RED CROSS PROPOSAL!
thank God everyone stayed back, but a few left cause of some reasons!
but nbm at least they put in effort! (:

cause like mr lee not around, clement asked me to buy bbt so yea,, i went to buy for myself & the whole ppl staying back (or those who were in the libary at that time i asked LOL!) so yea. bought like 6 bbt x.x"
all jerald treat de! :D xie xie jerald!
so many ppl drank!
heres the pic!



haahah! this shows our unity and the effort we wanna put in and make the proposal a sucess despite differences and backfalls!

so...
SUCESSS TO THE PROPOSAL!!! YAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM SENGGGGGGG! :D

haha! ^^ that was cool (:

and so we alll began the proposal,
work work work,
played played played
-,- -,- -,-
xD xD xD
did a lot of stuff! but in the end it was all fun! (:

so we went home (still haven't complete -,-)

so at home i came back bla bla

then i online worked with weijue abt the proposal!

then i called jerald for some help & talked to Eugene about the ULP!
thx Eugene for the adivce! ^^

anyway.. weijue settled everything then at the LAST MIN!
he could not combine & send,
zzz so i did it!
then when i try to combine look like shit!
but in the end i send..
then after that try to edit but cannot too hard!
so in the end i send all 5 files x.x"

but then like pass the deadline!
so elijah told me, but seriously.
all this ah! dun have last minute cannot do things!
if not everything will suffer!
nxt vetting die!

x.x"!

yoooz! :D
today was totally hectic yet relaxing! (:

ok today..
like i had my EL, POA, EM to do.. ><
then no time do! OMG!
heng got lit then managed to do a lil of some HW =X
haha..
during POA mr tuang went tru the ones which i done! :D
lol.

so lets skip...
today so called end early cause Mr Chng & Mr Chan can't make it for their lessons which is SS & physics.

so we went to the libary!
haha met SNG there! :D
talked talked talked~
lonq time never talk ler!! D:
so yea.. he helped me with my physics LOL!
haha thx dylan! =D

anyway.. met luke! :D
hehe we also talked talked talked!
he gave me some advice! haha
thx luke! (:
btw grats in your passing ur chinese oral! xD
& thx for the talking session LOL!
hope you do well for the 1000+ compo you written! (:

okok.. so after this i revise for my POA..
then after that had to run run run -,-
wait for mr tuang!
then took the TPL test! :O
quite ok lahh,, accept on question! D:
btw thx daniel korkor for accompaning me & aarom J. for accompaning me half way.
JETH, DYLAN TOO! [:
haha then went to the 4E2 look for mr tuang to return the paper..
dun have..
so went to staff room..
dun have..
so went to general office..
dun have..
then went to 3e6..
dun have..
LOL! coming back to where i took the test! he was THERE LOL!
& he said he also ran all over too look for me! LOLLL!
haha!
after that had a lil maths remedial!
teaching me how do Qn 6 (:
thx ms liu! :DD
then OMG.. mr tuang mark soo fast.. he showed me the marks..
19/20 WOOOOOTS! ^^ yayy haha! ^^

oh yea! then after that stayed back to do the RCP!
zzz, to someone : dun kp! (:
anyway.. thx wenping & weijue! for all the help! :D

after that went back home with weijue & wenping..
haha.. after that me and wenping went together..
i wanted to go to macs grap a snack..
then he say dun wan.. but i wan..
then he say 7eleven then ok lor,
cause i rememeber that time i was with clement then i remembered i wanted to try out the 7eleven food! :D
so me and wenping got the stuff roll - cheezy cheese! DAMMMMMMM NICEE! =DDDD
omg! but $1.80 nbm ^^ worth it! ^^

after that went back home..
omg! someone's vechile on fire! :O
the front part! LOLL!
i soo kiasu then call my mum to call the fire thingy!
then in the end the fire truck & ambulance came!
dam cooll..
if i free i go show you the pics! :D
sooo smoky and first x.x"
then the fire ppl saved the thing! =D






after that i went home..
saw the digital cam that was my ayi's one!
then i went through the cam cause its mine now.. :D
but old old one -,- who cares! its ayi one! i likeee <3
anyway.. saw through the pics.. got pic of her when she was all fat and healthy!
sob i showed the pics to my mum.. both of us teared a lil! D':

anyway.. now i have super duper alot of HW..
then finish must call EL to discuss the RCP..
sooo bb! :DD

interesting hor today!~ XD

hey hey! :D
OH MY GAWD!

Been selected for ULP.. XD, i heard its tough!
and i really wanna go! so yayy.. i hope i can make time to go.
cause the timing sooo xiong sia! x.x"
LORD help me! D:

ok today..
got alll the homework.
kp! sooo much!! D:
T___T

stayed back today to learn the congruency thingy to make up for tues.
omg! then after that went to e3 to do the proposal with MOST of the ppl?! =.=
anyway.. was like super duper tiring.
managed to do RnR but the rest still haven't do yet.
so jiayou us!
omg yea.. can really start to see people's true self.
so hope we all can take it, unless we all burst or i will.
then everything will go chaos! D<

came back & starting to do HW.
there is still so much to do! ):

oh ya.. while doing homework,, i kind of thought of ayi..
like the timeline thingy..
from like last time when i was young she was with me buying ice cream soda to make float cause i asked for it and then like now.. she is in the columbarium.
it is sad.. but i'm trying to embrace it! ><

ok shit! i go do my HW ler.. so much!!
nites! (:

see haha.. told you there will be many post ;P
okok soo mr luke wanted me to do this quiz..
so here goes nothing! xP



01. If you had a chance to go out with the person you like and your favourite celebrity for the whole day(separately), what would you do?
talk about life, ask her to come my house! become CLOSE friends! ^^

02. How do you feel now?
worried! ):

03. If you can fulfil one wish , what would it be?
er.. that everything can quickly get back to normal & for me to quickly adapt to everything as if nothing had happened! (=

04. Who are you thankful to?
FRIENDS & FAMILIES ^^ , THEY RULE MY LIFE! <3

05. Important wishes for now?
do well in exams, CONCENTRATE well, start to do PROPER revision, able to treat situation with calm-ness, able to get mentally prepared, able to organise, for the project work be a sucess, red cross proposal done properly!, friends to be well (:

06. If you can turn something in the past back , what would it be?
advice my ayi to lead a healthy life! spend more time with her ):

07.What are your main priorities now?
STUDIES, STUDIES, STUDIES after that is RED CROSS RED CROSS RED CROSS, PROJECT WORK PROJECT WORK PROJECT WORK, SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING, OUTING OUTING OUTING, GAMING GAMING GAMING ^^

08.What makes you happy?
FRIENDS & FAMILIES THAT SHOW CARE AND CONCERN ^^

09.What do you wanna change in you?
a few things, dun wanna say ITS PERSONAL LAH!

10. What song can represent your feelings now..?
when you're gone

11.What type of person you like most?
-,- don't know haven;t think until that far! xD

12. Are there anything you wish to confess now?
MY GAWD! I AMM SOOO TIRED! PAST FEW WEEKS SLEEPING AT 12+ WAKING UP AT 6+

13. What is your definition of a dream house?
a simple one, with tv, computer, mabe a puppy, different wall colour , sophisticated furniture! :D

14. Who will you go to when you are feeling low one day?
either i emo, or i'll go out with friends but smth i dun really express me feeling low even though i am (: so depends

15.What you hope to achieve?
good results, good positions, good friends, good everyting! like DUHH

16. What age do you wish to marry?
for now, i dunt wanna =X

*17. who do you miss most currently?


18.How many people made you angry for the past few days?
i cant really count i normally forgive and forget! unless that is something big problem!

19. who are you going to kill after this survey ?
the freaking ant in my room! zzz!!

20. Do u agree that without money life can still go on as well as it is with.
if everything is free, then the above statement is true.
OMG! i so freakin agree, like yea i told my mum about this before,, she agreed too! ^^ cause like if money was taken out of this world.. there are no DRAMATIC changes wad.. only jealously, selfish-ness, and evil things make having no money go wrong..

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above , and add in your personal question , Make it a total of 20 questions , then tag 5 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post . Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever has the tag will have blessings from all.

soo... lets talk about today..
btw i wanna say thanks to..
LUKE
EUGENE
DENISE
JETH
& many more who have showed care and concern to me! :D x3

ok so today had to wake up super early cause today is the day where the mass and stuff are held so i didn;t go sch, although i wanna too.
so woke up, bathe, got ready and went down.
below was like quite a number of ppl there already.
the priest was quite late, we said our final goodbye, put flowers near the body..
haix! so sad! ):

after we walked the van , haha the van was so fast!
then we boarded the bus and when to IHM for the mass..

in IHM, we had the mass..
had commumium.. and the communium minister was a lady! =O wow! LOL.

after that we went to cremetoriam centre, always known as MANDAI..
dam sad.. wwe had our last look.. from there on.. i cried and cried..
because like the body will be gone for ever and ever.. T_T & only the ashes will be remain.. cause like from dust we are made, and from dusst we shall return..
so after the mini mass and goodbye thingy, we went to the viewing hall..
SOOOO SAD! everyone was crying! (its normal)
yea.. super sad! )):

anyway.. after that we all washed our hands in water containing flowers. my mum said it is some cutom of yixi yixi lol. after bus, we reached the void deck & we had lunch! wahh.. so yummy sia! XD! :DD

after that.. the some bills were made & yea.. it was the end of the entire thing.
i think yea.. we will slowly forget about this but still ayi will always remain in my heart! <3

up at home, cause like yea i was in charge of the logistics haha like settling the peanuts , sweeets, drinks and stuff for the last 3 days..
i also swept the entire void deck! i did that for ayi, cause like that was the very least i could have done! (:
LOL! in the end i was rewarded! i got quite okok ang bao for that. my new nickname now - BANGLA! haha! but yea lah.. i alos think my ayi, inspired then to reward me cause like ayi always rewards me with either money or a very tasty treat! :D

after that i slept! cause i was sooooo sleepy..
tmr i gotta go back to sch!
omg i gotta catch up on sooo many things!

btw.. i am like dam sad! cause like yea i could not go for the fare well part for bryan! =( i heard it was super fun and nice!
oh well.. i feel dam bad.. haix,,
anyway.. GOODBYE BRYAN! HAVE A NICE TIME IN VIETNAM! =D <3

wow dam! i have like sooo many things to worry for tmr!! :
- EM REVISION ( to make uup for today)
- LIT REVISION ( to make up for today)
- FIND OUT WAD HAPPENED DURING LIT & COPY NOTES!
- FIND OUR WAD HAPPENNED DURING EL
- DISCUSS WITH THE GRP ON LIKE WAD WE'RE GOING TO DO
- POA TEST =.=
- START ON REVISION..?
- RED CROSS THINGY
AND MANY MORE WHICH I CAN'T RMB! X.X"

anyway.. i'm a lil depressed over a few things!
but i hope that once i wake up tmr i can solve those things!
and yea start afresh and anew because one HUGE matter has been taken away.
jiayou gene! :D <3

okok bb (:

hi peeps!
i will post alot of post cause to make up for the one day missing post!
ok talking about 21/4/08

happy bday BOSS! your fifteen! :DD

today,, had to practically rush!
cause today was the day to get the id and pw for the grp project! ^^
so ran and ran, then que up.
so much of pushing and sqeezing!
damit! met up with FATZ (clement) (:
then finally managed to go in and get our id and pw LOL..
after we got it we ran ran ran! :OO
to the com com lab! xD
met up with wenping, dawson, qirong there.
saw the list of teachers.. the teacher we want not there!
zzz, so than we fianlly thought about it!
we picked.. mr marcel Lee instead, cause hhe was former HOD CHEM
and he is a all rounded so yea, quite safe abt the accedemics part!
hope to work well with him! (:
but on the other hand, he could be like super busy yea and strict! ):
so again... leave it up to the lord! (:

after that walked with qirong until my house then he zhao.
i did a lil of my work, then i went down for dinner and saw ayi (':
oh well! that was abt it! ><

hi people!
ayi today 20/4/08 passed away... (':
ayi, we will all miss you! and i will always remember the good and bad times we had!
the last time where you made sushi! bringing me out! buying me things!
i will always remember you my lovely and only big ayi! =)
i hope you're having a nice time up there now! (:
don't forget to look over and after us!
<3 i love you ayi & i miss you! ('=

for ayi:


I always needed time on my own,
I never thought I'd, need you there when I cried.
And the days feel like years when I'm alone,
And the bed where you lie,
Is made up on your side.

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone,
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you.

I've never felt this way before,
Everything that I do,
Reminds me of you.
And the clothes you left,
They lie on the floor,
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do!

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
And when you're gone,
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you.

We were made for each other,
Out here forever,
I know we were,
Yeah Yeah!
All I ever wanted was for you to know,
Everything I do I give my heart and soul,
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me...
Yeah!

When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone,
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you!

ILY! <3 ; IMY! <3

yoyo!
try to make this short!

today basically one main thing ..
SPEECH DAY! =D

woke up today at 9.30, bath, ate prepared then left
reached sch a lil late haha!
then we discusssed the plan for the Red Cross camp,
later have to re do the entire thing, pass it up on sun.
i dunno whether it is unfair or not but like me and jerald only are doing the typing and the staying up late thing. dam xin ku lah! TT

anyway.. today did like a few rehersals (short one)
then one main rehersal!

had to dabao lunch and eat fast cause timing short x.x"
ate with like everyone?

haha changed bla bla... then had the real main thing.
i screw up abit!
cause of the belok thing and the kakananlurus thing!
haix! but wads done is done! i still get my CCA point LOL!

saw luke! (: he was like peace sign then i smilled cause i cant really move cause i was in the parade. lols! (:

so yea, had the debrief,
then had to do pumping,situp,jumping jack.
haha
George was sooo hilarious! he tio jack!
he challenged to do jumping jack with one old sir and with andy.
haha then nick go run, hit his handphone LOLL!!
excusee lah! then he never doo!!
hahas alot of jacking lah ._.

went back home with aaron & danial kor (:

sian sia, today the entire event take up like half of the day.
but glad its over, another matter done! (:

so i went back home eat, blablabla then started on the proposal again.
zzz had to re do.
i done, then i ask jerald do the excel thingy, tmr he will pass me then i'll copy it on to the word doc. then check! - then ready for submission! :D

okok! (:

so here are things i wanna say :
- anyone want the coupon for the funfair thingy?
- denise : nbm gal! sch always has ups and downs rite? you just have to prove the teacher wrong and to do well in everything! (: pray to God and i;m sure he will be on ur side! (: stay strong girl! ^^ anything, can talk to me! x)
- Luke : hey luke!! thanks for seeing me today although i cant really respond much haha. but yea thx! :D oh ya.. nbm about her! just rant ur way through .. cause seriously you are really a pro person who can win talk battles! 8D thx for all the support and encouragement and care! ^^ x3~
- Eugene : hey sir!! will take note abt the uniform thing and aply it when we take over! haha thx yea! (:

oh k! time to sleep!
muas everyone! :D

hies hies! :D
if you have noticed, i normally post my blog at like 11.00pm++
soo sleepy >< !!
i think i like ... OOOOO 12AM LER~ MORNING GENTLEMEN!
haha yea..i keep sleeping sooo late! waking up early!
then got so much h/w , revision, depressing matters, impt projects!
ahh ahh ahh! SO TIREING! X.X"
i guess thats the life of a sec 3 ><
omg i am soo sleepy zzz ><

oh yea! so when i was wlaking to school today,,
i slip and fell landing on my butt bone like the butt rite? the bone above the butt! D: dam pain lah! ):
then now my neck hurts.. ouch! D:

anyway.. cause like yst i didn't manage to do my uniform x.x"
so heng today SS first 2 period! heng!
so i did my uniform LOLLL!!! =XX
tried to study for POA, but cant x.x"
oh yea! i found my dairy back! ^^ , mr ivan actually go and take my diary on thurs and put it under one of the table and he forgot abt it! heng he rmb today! ._.

after SS was POA,
POA got test, i comfirm will get 0 ,, zzz i dunno ANY SINGLE THING!
but hu cares =.= its upon 10 only -.-

after POA was .. CHEM ^^
today did the practical! ^^
cool lah! first time in my life that did quite alot of lab work xD
it was actually a grp effort, i helped too xP
got burn moth ball the power form, salt, dissolve it, play with karosene LOL..
and much more.. haha so fun lah!

SHOUTOUT! :
btw bryan is leaving soon! D:
mr bryan! good luck in everything yea?
maybe can see turbs one day.. haha! xD
carry that racism too vietnam LOL!
haah jkjk =X but thanks for helping me and the class in alot of ways,
that cheerfullness of yours really fills the class with laughter and joy! (:

recess..
had a last minute grp talk then settled a few matters for the project.

after that english,
made us stay back never help us ! D:

anyway..
had redcross..
had one rehearsal!
lol, then had a 1hr talk with george! >< =X
nothing much~ i now know how to fold my barret! yay!! =DD

came back home late cause had some talk with Eugene Sir together with jerald.

sia lah!! 7.30 then reach home! ><
packed up things, ate dinner
but hahas, talked about ayi!
heng she never pass away today! yay! ^_^ =X
haix,, but i know she will soon very fast.. )':

actually like everyday i have this fear of my phone vibrating that my parents wanna call me, and also like each time i go back home i fear that the block downstairs got the funeral thingy! ):

i really do cry sometimes like remembering all the good times that i had with ayi and that yst i visited her (: looking at her face and arms saying goodbye! (:
haix,, i love my ayi! 1314 <3
anyway.. i still again, do hope that i can still go for speech day!
oh i really hope i can! x.x

anyway.. i just now finally finished doing the RC proposal!
phew i can say that again.. PHEW! lol! finally one thing of my mind! (:
but them tmr got speech day (hope if i can go) will be very more tiring!
sian lah!!

okok i wan sleep sooo sleepy! >< Zzzz!!ZZZZzzZZzZzZz!
ok have a good nites slp! (:

wahh sry sry post soo late D:
* i try to make this quick cause i need to do my work!
yea damit, still work at this hour! ><

okok so going skip through alot of things, only going say the highlights of the day (:


ok lets talk about EM,
today we went to the libary to have lessons, only did corrections for like 2Q
cause ms liu said she waas pissed off with the last class she went to.

about CHINESE,
that bitch came today, my gawd i so seriously think that she has OCD (obsesive compulsive disorder) SHE is one BITCH, we went into CA marks AGAIN! i seriously dunno why she go gan jiong! anyway, she threw : tables, chairs, textbooks, file
it was quite funny lah esp for the ivan part haha!
*threw chair
** ohh thats my...ok nbm,
*threw table instead LOL!
** NOOOO!! MY TABLE!!

hahas! she was like insulting everyone. including our form & co-form teachers, she insulted everyone of us, scold us, curse us, ask us die, soo many thing, i seriously wanna report her sia! such a teacher should have been SACKED A LONG LONG LONG TIME AGO! :D

anyway.. she was pushing everyone to the limit until jason chew could not took it and when for recess, nice one chew! =D LOL! =x

anyway.. came VE,
mr foo showed us a video on two ppl,
one is a person who has cancer but still carried on with life
another is a person WITHOUT limbs! but he still carries on with life!
pro huh this ppl, i soo totally respect them! (:

after that was SS,
shitt lah!! i lost my dairy, i can't seem to find it anywhere ):
hope i get it back! (:

skip skip skip,
my gawd! had a lil meeting regarding the re-doing the schedule, & damit me and jerald are now doing it, typing it and printing! hard work yea! D: :D

anyway,, i had to stay back cause had to finish my history,,
jerald and dawson stayed back together ^^
thx guys! :D

after that i saw mum, asked her if got dinner , so i went to buy dinner.
LOL! i had bak chok me + pork chop ( the auntie made a mistake ) :DD =X

then had tuition, was sooo sleepy zzz!!
never have tuition at late evening because
1. you cant complete your work
2. things will be delatyed
3. cant do revision
4. you'll be sleepy,
5. will be tiring!

after that i did the RC thingy, then my dad called my mum saying that ayi talked!
me and my mum started crying because of two reasons! :
the good reason : she finally talked! yay! :D
the bad reason : ok see ahh,, when a person who is going and comfirm to die suddenly just gathers the last strengh to start talking, it shows that it is the last stage where the patient is giving a FINALY LAST GOODBYE then she passes away..
me and my mum knew that ! TT

it was so sad! ):
while doing my RC thing, then my mum said lets visit ayi for the LAST TIME!
we went to see ayi, she looked alike my grandmother ( the person who passed away) where she really is waving trying to smile despite being SOO weak! ]:
the moment i saw ayi, i just could not control my tears! i cried cried cried
sob sob ): like can you imagine your finaly good bye to someone, the next time you see that perosn is the columbarium =(
sob! i cried soo much! i managed to see ayi and said my last goodbye ( i thank god we came today) she moved her fingers and like try to hold your hand , but her eyes can really see cause its looking in another direction ):
sob! haix! good bye ayi, i think your time has come, i am really honoured to be your nephew! (': goodbye ayi, i love you so much! i will never EVER forget you! T________T
when we all were going that time, she kept moving her fingers,, to signal to us that last byebye,, the moment i saw her fingers move the more i cried! haix! at the end she gathered all her strenghth to give that full wave! that was so sweet and immediately i cried soo much! i really will miss ayi, )'= i willl..

because of all this signs, most probally i think she will pass away like today or tmr because the same thing happened to my grandma! she was in a state of sleeping then one day she suddenly managed to say byebye to everyone the very next morning! she passed away, ): damit i'm crying again! i think most proabally the same thing will happen to ayi, i think their are steps to dying i can really see it distinctly!

haix,, soo yea, i may not be able to attend the training or the speech day ):
i hope you guys will understand! D':

anyway...
i still got :
- POA TEST TMR
- CHINESE COMPO
- RC SCHEDULE

LOL! it turned out to be a long post instead! haix! okok nites or should i say morning! ): sob sob..

heeeeelos!
i'm like so dead =.="
ccause i never do my H/W and i am slacking! D<
later i better go chiong and do!
jiayou ^^

okok so about today...

had a talk about the project work that all of the sec3E were suppose to have.
sat with one of my bestie - mr clement chin! (:
talked alot & laugh alot xP
in the end we craeted out grp.
yayyy :DD
ME, CLEMENT, DAWSON, WENPING, QIRONG!
nicenice (:
we will do well de! :D

anyway.. after that was PE!
eee -,- 2.4 =="
but..
I JUST PASS BY 15SEC WOOTS ;D
hahas, i got 15.05 :O my God thank God lah! although walk quite a fair bit still managed to pass ^^
its kinda good having a late bday cause your timing will be slower but get a pass :D
hehe ^^ so the only i think i failed was standing broadjump -.-
i got short legs ): can't jump far LOL!

after that was POA...
den den den den! i neh do POA X.X"
but thank God Mr Tuang say we not in the mood the learn, he teach also waste his time
haha! he said that ok! so later better do! ><

hahas, after POA was EM!
sooo much homework - extra practice on inequalities ):
then ms liu showed us a slideshow with a lot of quotes,
all suppose to inspire us!
thats nice lah! she borthred to find smth to make us feel inspired! (:
then JF was like eee, wad the hell lah, waste of time -,-
he like soo never think of ppl.

zzz,,

then got HISTORY!
i never do SEQ, my gawd! i drag for soo long!
haha later i better do xP

recess!
- never eat, talked with jerald & Eugene Tan about the Bronze commands
and the yang tingi thingy LOL. xD

then ENGLISH!
mrs rama was like giving us assignments nowadys only give us like 40min to complete.
and the assignments was suppose to help us in CA cause she said hopefully all of us can PASS that means we did dam badly for our other assignments! hais! soo obviously need to stay back finish up!

after that SS
i so freakin love this period!
cause i copied xP =XX
CC row ah he say, all the entire row got txtbk then do test LOL!
my row haha got some ans. i took out my assignment bk =XX then do the test copy and do! :O xO
SHHHHHHHH hahas! xD =X

finally... CHINESE
FOONG never come, cause she got course or smth lyk tat.
thank god! that i call is baoying for keeping us back ! (:
hehe so free period! do my eng and SS in the libary.
raphael was doing his AM my god, it took him 1 hr to do one question?!
scary sia! x_X

anyway wait until 3.20 then we left to go for SLC interview.
while waiting i went down to the porch, talk with wenping and shannon until their parent came to fetch them.

haha came back, then did some work,, did some of the schedule.

so like joel , clinton, raphael, zeon, satti, jason then ME.
zzz last one, just like in red cross accept that time got ppl wait for me lah! =D

hahas so it was my turn, sriously was sooo scared!
A.K came took the tie, blindfold me!
den den den den! ><
went to the room, scary sia inside!
okok so heres the funny part!
i got crayons in and out of my nosetrills, blindfold, wrapped around, hands tied, legs tied, markings on my arm and thigh.
then did the interview!
hahas, well i wanted admin head cause .... personal reason! =X
they asked alot of question, managed to ans, cause i so nervous haha then repeat some ans! x.x"
but it was really really cool i thought, cause like when do you have an interview to get to do this kind of funny stuff LOL!!
anyway... the playish atmosphere can like sort of made you relax but it made me nervous LOL, i think i was like dam stiff x.x"
went into some closet, got locked with mr eugene sir in it haha, dam cool!
i think i am getting fat, my arm fats were pushed around when the door closed LOL!
hahas, took out the blindfold, smiled (: went out of the room..
then had a really long long QnA session with Eugene haha!
managed to get a sneak preview of how life were to be and EXCO.
nice but not that nice lah (:

to me whether i become EXCO? let God decide (:
he knows whats best for me xD

anyway went back home..
so hungry so i ate my dinner first then i bath.
then do work!

now blogging! (:

okok i better complete the rest of my work!
nites! (:

lols people!
** IF YOU WANT THE TICKET JUST FEEL FREE TO ASK ME FOR IT! >)

OKOK? ^^

today was okok (:

was totally scared today, cause i scared my mother or father call me regarding abt ayi ):
thank god never call lah, but i felt quite depressed but thank god got friends cheer me up <3

anyway, today had the money sense thingy o.O
lesson learn : SAVE UP MONEY FOR THE FUTURE! & hell yea, foregin uni are exp! TT

nothing much abt lessons today,,

oh yea, assembly was cool!
done by the drama mama ppl today (: quite nice lah haha.
really nice! keep the good work up guys! :D
oh yea, i have one dam black friend, when the lights were all off suddenly then he talked to me , he kinda scared me seriously! TT
LOLS! :X

anyway stayed back to create the plan for RCYCD2 yea.
expressed my views, ppl expressed theres..
yea finally came up with the plan (: hope can make it lah haha xD
those ppl made me laugh :D

anyway..
came back home,, then saw my grandparents at home :O
they were sared lah! i could really feel the tense-ness in them }:

but yea, i kinda accepted abt ayi ler,
for now i feel kinda ok (':
but i may breakdown D<
dunno :O
i still have to do :
- POA
- SS
- HIST

my gosh ><

okok bb (:

hii guys!

today was a really nice but DEPRESSING day for me.

Eugene talked to me yea bt *ahem* . hehe thx ^^
feel more assured now [:

fianlly got our class tee (: , nice rite? (back view)



***oh ya! thx denise for all the support, same to you luke! (:
you two are like the ones giving the most support ^^
thx guys! it is really my hornour being your friend (=

anyway...

recieved my chemestry test ~
my god, 8/20 =.="
i REALLY REALLY REALLY GOT TO buck up on my chem ler!
jiayous! :D

then during recess , met igy kor then talk talk talk was finiding luke.
then luke was upstairs lols!
anyway he gave me a present (:
really sweet cause he knows i'm mr poor so he gave me the handphone top up thingy!
wah mr luke, soo exp! ><
i'll use it after everything happens bah (':

after recess was maths!
i got a 18/20 again lols ^^
so my ca now 90% WOOTS! 2nd in class :O
thx uncle _ _ _ _ _ _ (: you helped so much! x3

got back chinese results -.-
20/50 damit lah! zzz i still dun wanna give up on chinese jiayou! <3
my overall ca is like 37% LOL TT
must really buck up ! ^.^

oh yea then during chinese the teacher was like in her bitchiest mode =.="
she kept everyone back until like 3.25pm?!
zzz! she SHOUTED, SCREAMED, wad else? more bitchy stuff lah (:
but hell yea! she really is disgusting, having this mao bing!
God bless her =.=!

anyway, thank god wen ping wait for me and jerald!
thx wenping (:
we ate ice cream then settled for a quick bite.
after that went back home.

at home i was doing my poa then suddenly my mum knocked on my door,
she was crying..
she said that the nurse called her and that notified that ayi was detorating,
she was heading to unconciousness.
this would also meant that ayi would die very very soon.
like maybe in 1 or 2 days time or even tonight )=.
i cried ]: , haix, ayi was sooo close to me!

like what denise & luke said, i think that yea God's plan for this to come & something will be postive & i should trust in the lord.

Lord, now please take her back peacefully now! let everyone of us accpet her death & that she may rest in peace.

after i finished my work (some only haha) then i went to take my dinner,
i didn't really talk, i didn't even tell mum i had 2nd in class and that my ca was 90%, my mind was seriously sad.

haix, my father & mum comforted me, saying that she would finally be eased of her suffering & it was destinied like everyone had visited her. before today, so it was like the last visit ):

my father and mum went to see my ayi for the last time i guess , ayi still doesn't talk but still i can sense she only sleeps where she haix accpeted her fate & calmed down, i remember telling ayi that God sayed to me ( i can somehow talk to God SERIOUSLY! i have this gift but i don't know whether some is true but apparently all the things were true) about that once ayi fianlly calms and settles everything, God will then call her back. i think it is true, she seems rather calm now, (':

anyway,, my popo is in my house now taking care of us.
just now i went out of my room to take a drink and then she said that it is really a pity that ayi has to leave, like it is soo sudden & that no one could actually detact anything. popo also said that ayi "teng" me very much where she used to make food for me, bring me out, and like she done so many good things to me.
i could really sense the sadness in popo, i guess everyone is sad yea. ):

haix,, okok i gota go ler~ bb (':

OH YES! i almost forgot!
i bought this ticket from the hospice when i visited ayi that sunday.
i only bought 1 but its $10 i cant make it so i'm like giving it free.
i only have 1 so FCFS yea xD,
details : 18 may sunday, 10am - 5pm, SJI(I) @ 490 thomson ad

yea.. so here wad it looks like (:



okok hahas, bye byes (':
sobs ><

hi guys! (:
before i get to my post i wanna say somethings & thank some people (:

> omg mr ivan! how come my shirt will have a marking and only me T_T
> but anyway,,, THANKYOU ivan for helping to make the class tee
> THANKYOU luke for the cheering up :D can't wait to see the pressent :O
> THANKYOU calyn for featuring me (: [ i featured you too xP ]
> THANKYOU johnson sir for giving me alot of words of encouragement! [those words really showed me motivation to do well and work hard!]
> THANKYOU Eugene for telling me the bdays haha & about the motivation & advice (:
> THANKYOU denise for the very nice present although i'm still puzzled wads it LOLS :X

ok lets talk about today..

went to mass, laughed a lil cause Fr luke said some money jokes haha.

anyway waited for denise and was wondering where she was o.O
saw mr ma wai cheong! & said hi glad he joined RCIY.
anyway sms-ed denise and then she said where you and i'm like .. where youu too?
haha then guess wad?
i turned behind and she was right behind me LOLLS!!
cute right? x3
anyways, she gave me a present (: from phill.
thanks denise you're one of my really good good friends (:
IOU one! (: haha but i really don't know wad it is. my father said it was a friendship band. i'll put up the pic of it one day when i'm free (:
but.. THANKS DENISE! <33 x33
ok so its a FRIENSHIP BAND really nice yea? (:





ok went back home and then started watching tv after that my mum came up and said lets have lunch at the cofee shop. ok lor (: then went to S11 ( i don't know wads the new name but always know that shop as S11 lols xD)
ate claypot rice, filling and lovely :D
drank teh see peng :D
ate with the family (:

after that watched tv with my dad until sleep ><
haha, slept for only awile only, then woke up.
my grandparents came to look after my sisters then me, my mum & dad went to ssee ayi.

ok so heres the part where it gets emotional D':<

the moment i stepped into the hospice, i felt evtremely nervouse and worried.
so the nurses were cleaning ayi up & so i tried to calm myself down.
the feeling was like getting back the SAs RESULTS. funny but scary TT

anyway i saw ayi, and i cried ):
she looked SOOOOOOOOO diffrent compared to when it was her birthday.
she slimed down soo much! her face totally diffrent cause she was like so sad and pain ):

i walked to her and said hi ayi the she noticed and wave.

i think ever since she was in the hospice she stopped talking ( she still talks only like a little and its very soft she normally talks one word or just nods her head - it think it is a sign that yea you know & thaat now it actually is EFFORT for her doing all this because it is very pain for her and tiring), she just began to sleep & started to talk less and less. she only nods & one word ans for replys.

she started to cough and then vomited, thank god my mum knew what to do. the nurse said that she actually vomitted out gastric juice cause she didn't eat ):

i cried even more..

my mum asked me to talk to ayi, i talked to her but i cried ==" so i head to bring it all in and talk to her. it felt good tlaking to her. but i think ayi wass sooo tired and shse didn't want to hear me so she asked me to stop.

my mum said nbm cause she;s in this stage where she has achieved acceptence, and where she begins to shut herself from the outside world and begin for departure )':

anyway so ok (: but then her leg was pain cause speaded to her bone. my father told me how pain was it. like imagine now... that someone is digging your nail, cause you have a ingrowth toenail, the pain is like creepy cause someone touching the "flesh". dad said ayi's pain is like 3x worse then tat ):

anyway i just cried & cried so much. her leg was pain yea then asked the nurse to give her , her mophine to stop the pain. then the nurse moved ayi's leg, ayi actually screamed cause it was soo pain a tear dropped out ):
i saw ayi, she kept messaging her kidney there but the bone there i could tell that her entire body hurt so much! sob sob ):

we prayed the rosary and we prayed all : the joyfull, light, sorrowfull, glorius mystries. i normally cant concentrate but i did, when i we were saying the rosary, i saw ayi and like thought of last time when she was still good and proper healthy lecturing me about my studies and now she's groaning in pain every second ):

i really really feel sad )=

anyway.. we said good bye to her and she noticed and did a weak wave.

i guess that she really is different now, she only weak waves back & nods her head and sometimes weak ans ):

poor ayi, all i can hope for is that for her suffering to be lesssen and that she can start to accept God and to departure peacefully (':

after that we went to see the nurse and talked about how long will ayi get to live and why is she suddenly still lik that. and omg, i saw that ayi had to take so many medication and the nurse also said that because of the huge and different amt of mediciane she consumes there is some chemical reaction which is causing her to feel nausure. ):

ayi also didn;t eat or drink.. these are all signs i guess..
& the nurse said that she would'nt be around for long soon.. )'=
sobs! ): i really am sad and crying! ):

after we went back home

and i had my dinner

then i did my homework

and now i'm blogging.

sob sob... D<

anyway i do hope i can get some of the results back.

( sorry for the long post and maybe some parts were too wierd abt the ayi thingy, this post i didn't really wanna put evrything cause it would be too painfull for me)

i think i'm starting to accept the fact that ayi is going to departure soon...
haix,, ayi, i'll pray for you evryday.
and hope that you can be peacfull (:

i really hope that ayi's departure soon will not affect me & my studies >< haix, but yea it is all lord's way he wants it.

anyways byebye (':

hellos! (:

**some ppl tagged & said my blog was too wordy.
hmm.. lols, well i guess i have alot happening for one day and i really wanna pour it all out so hahas , soo.. SORRY AH! ><
i'll try to put up something interesting. i said ILL TRY lols.

okok along with the day!!

nothing much today like seriously!

did a little of my homework, DIE X.X"

had tuition recap inequalities (:

after that had some family talk (=

now revising a lil x.x"

i don't know why like nowadays i cant really do my work & revision well.
hais! jiayou! xD

oh yea! my father visited ayi today, tmr i'll be visiting her ><
just to let ya know, ayi was transfered to the hospice.
dad said that ayi was so quiet & different.
she dosen't talk anymore or she talks SOO little but just sleeps only.
she is like totally diffrent. maybe she is peacefull ler, i think she's going up soon.. =(
i really do hope a mirical will happen, but hais, trust the lord!
its really sad, that one of your closest aunt almost like ur 2nd mum is in a hospice, and she no more crys, talks anymore, shes soo quiet )':

but i'll be visiting her tmr, i hope will rest in peace i dun wan her to go on suffering, but i also want her to be here with us.

am i being selfing of wanting my ayi to be with us?
i really don't know. maybe i am.

oh ya, today no one was home excpet me, but the telephone rang, i looked at it and it was actually my aunt's phone number, i was a lil shock but it was actually my mum after all. after that call, it really saddened me, cause i really miss the times talking to ayi for like 1hr+ on the phone (':

haix,, may the Lord bless you ayi (': i love you <3

oh yea this "advertisment" is really funny..
TICKLE ME EMO xDD hahas!



ok yea, better finish all my work if not i'll die!
jiayou GENE! (:

ok tatas~ ^_^

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WHY NOW EVERYTHING SO LAG?! TSK TSK!! =.="
now i'm like super tirred x.x"

but ok lets talk about today :)

today i planned to wake up at 5.30 then my alarm never rang =="
so my mum waked me up sayed it was 7am, then i BOINCED UP lols, then i see only 6.30 but dam funny ah, dunno why my alarm never on o.O

anyway...

OH YA! is my blog emo? like scott say it was o.O
all the emo posts and all lols.

had morning duty, & it was raining , sooo...
7.45 then considered late, its a good thing & bad thing.
hahas, good thing is that people who come late get to escape ><
then the bad thing is that we people doing duty nothing to do LOLS!
cause like maybe only 1 or 2 will be late. yea lols.

called my Eugene and did some talking about the badges thing haha, hope can get the badges soon! ^^

had to complete the english essay after school so was late for red cross xP
then change to full uniform lols lah! first time i change to full u in class sia! :O

then while running & finding where everyone were, me & jerald met mrs foong she said i'm last in class again but i got 20/50.
although i failed, i improved by a lil (: soon lah will pass ^^ , but i'm happy cause i managed to raise the low mark. only 5 more marks to pass ^^
jiayou! :D

anyway went to the classroom to put down my things then my barrat ... wenping took it & put on the whiteboard there, then i never see =.= then the door lock!

omg! then i found out! zzz, got the key and ran back.. SO TIRIRING TT

after i got my barrat, my pang came and like hi gene..
come come..
i'm like yes sir?
he goes like i heard you skipped training 2 weeks ago..
i'm like huh?
he goes like OH YA! you're not that feller, haha nbm gogo.

LOLS! XD
funny luh!

wth george owe me MY black socks,
-.- he pump me for not going to him.
zzz, i went to him called him 3 times & tapped him, he say NOT OBVIOUS LEH! SO DOWN LOR?! -.-!

**so all in all cause like come red cross then blur blur, i tio like 50 pumping when i just came to the squard. T__T

lesson learn today : be mentally prepared for every training & never lend things do a kind favour of lending something cause when you get it back, yor get push ups for not asking for it -.-

hahas anyway, had the speech day training, so march march march lols. leg pain ah!
nxt sat is speech day - so fast sia! @_@

then during one of the break one of my good close buds came and did my barret lols!
cause my DYLAN is pro pro mah! XD haha thx SNG! (:

then march march march again...

just to let you know, i'm like all the way behind ): but i'll be the first when they turn the squard and march off lah (:
ok so the ppl next to me is jun wuen & YX,
they really gota buck up! not saying i don't need but i do (: but all lah! must keep in with the timing! (:
i screw up abit during the rehersal x.x"
but at least i knew my timing =DD yayy!! LOLS!

had the 100 plus cause its a drink for those who participate in the speech day rehersal. its nice to have this (: really sweet ;D

then had to change out of the full uu & back to PTKIT lols xD,
had to run i think 5 or 6 rounds cause we late.
dam tiring >< still after rehersal sommore!
but good luh! it really helps us to remember that we have a time deadline to keep up with.

anyway,, elijah said that we the sec 3s had to plan 1 day for the camp!!
yay!!! going be lots of fun i suppose! (: i really gota put in alot of effort for this cause i am a "training-head-wanna-be" haha as said by Eugene Sir LOLS!

but yala! i really need to put in a lot of effort for everything in red cross to prove my self worthy of the post! but yea planning a day in a camp going be cool xD
*jiayou!* x)

soo tired now!! lols,
gota sleep ler! kk bbs (:
NIGHTS!

p.s ( if got any error or more parts i wanna delete or add i'll do it tmr - too sleepyyy... zzzzzz >< ) haha =X

btw, was it mr tuang's or ms pan's bday today? LOLs.

yayyy ^^
a doubt cleared now,
so now were back to being good friends (:

really sometimes one gotta talk it out & resolve the problem (:

ok gotttttta sleep nites xD

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hellos~!
wierd day today, i would describe it as RANDOM! @_@

today!!, i heard that sati had the $50 LOL, so it was true after all haha xD
but actually it was all pre-planned xD but anyway i'm glad that sati had it (: cause i know he won't like do anything with it, his a humble guy & i respect him for that [: && he says hes gonna save it (: - the money really is in good hands x)

ok so, had maths test today - so i knew the basics so yea i hope i can do well xD, but dunno i can get full marks or not, hope i can get good results ^^

then had CHINESE =.= test - omg lah u guys know my chinese so its like another typical COMFIRM FAIL CASE haha! =x

after that had recess & then had..
VE LESSON BY MR FOO (:

lols! during VE lesson, it was conducted at the study corner there. lols.
i dunno whether should i tell anot, but i think i should respect the class's privacy ahaha! so i'm not going to tell what was the funny and exciting part (x.
anyway after that exciting part, we were alowed to go out of sch to do some reflection & do a survey. Mr Foo is a really nice & interesting guy, like seriously! all his lessons are so funky & creative! :D had teh-si-peng and revised alittle for my physics test.

damit! MR GOH ZHENG HAN OWES ME $5! & MR JASON HOON OWES ME $1.20
;OO

ANYWAY was eating my NERDs during SS lesson cause its mr chng period =P .
i kana scolded by him like dam harshly cause he alil agitated then he scold me infront of the whole class cause i talking =.= zzz. but heck care about that SS is not that important =.=! xP
haix, sia lah! tmr first two periods is SS zzz, going to revise for my chem! heck care him! :P

after SS was physics! den den den den~!
had a lil revision & then had the test~!
physics test - ok lah! same as maths i think i know the basics but hope i can do well haha. not really confident in it

after that~~~ no more! :D

went home with wenping, talked about some matters regarding some ppl haha xD shhh =X.

then at home i did my POA i dunno really must do all or just the trading, profit & loss acount. but i just do the TPL cause the rest i not that sure how to do. if must do then i do during SS lor again heck care! :P

after that went into reflection again LOL, & again the topic - FRIENDS!
i feel that friends bond are like what make up my life (:

there are some friends where you are close with for like a few years then now its just like a lil GONE,

but never again will i feel that richness in friendship bond.

then there are some where they are your friend for awhile then after that they don't talk to you & again the bond is very THIN.

so i'm not too sure , but maybe it is time to create new bonds and start afresh, its time to look at things in a different way. but i should cause i'm taking LITERATURE haha xD.

oh ya! then there are some bonds which you have for a long time & are still there after a long time (:

so yea i think there are different bonds, each and everyone has he or her life, i guess it all depends on both parties to click, then a bond will be made [:

so yea i think that there is like
1. bold to medium
2. bold to thin
3. bold to nothing
4. medium to bold
5. medium to thin
6. medium just sticks as medium
7. thin to bold
8. thin to medium
9. thin just sticks as thin

so yea in my opinion these are the different versions of bonds.

but still, true friends are really true friends (: its easy to tell (:

ok anyway enough of my reflecting haha xD

but yea (: just my opinions HOR! NO OFFENCE OR ANYTHING OK??

I JUST POURING OUT WHAT I THINK!! ((: =D

tmr i have CHEMESTY test x.x"
gota study and remember some things.

& damit i have lit and eng work to do!

better start doing..

okok bye bye (:

okok! haha so lets come back to reality now haha i know i'm lame =\
anyway back to normal date - 9/4/08

(this is the 2ND PART OF MY POST)
[PLEASE LOOK BELOW BELOW BELOW FOR MY FRST POST]
TY~!

oh ya! today is the holiday for SGSS students only! :D
cause its a holiday for the entire sch due to the good "o" level results haha xD
sooo yayyyyy~! :DD

today i woke up like super late!
10.30am =P
really made up for the loss of sleep i had.
really feel so awakened! =D

anyway i still didn't talk to my mum,
then i had breakfast and bla bla bla.
i was actually reflecting in my room about past days cause i really felt very uneasy about things.

*i would like to APOLOGISE for all the WRONG things that i have done to you ):
*i really hope you would FORGIVE ME & that we could be even closer friends! (:
*just be happy ok? (:
*I WANT TO BE WITH YOU! ):
* i miss you soo much!
* i really want you to be my friend, maybe i have not done my duty as a friend but i hope you would really forgive me and accept my apology ):
*** anyway i just one word for you SORRY!! yea, this really would be my apology for some of you there. you really do make up my life! please still be with me & be my friend & laopo!

[well that was what i reflected about why sometimes i feel so empty, i think i really do need to do that to clear upp ALL the wrongs that i did towards you, i hope we can start afresh]

-> that was for to all my friends and dearest gans! or for people you feel that i have wronged you ok?

lets re-start and be clear and happy ok? (':

IF YOU FELT I HAVE DONE YOU WRONG OR NOT BEING A FRIEND, THIS IS FOR YOU!

ok, now i feel much better after doing what i done and what i reflected, now its the other party turn (: to accept or not.

ok (: , feel better =]
anyway, after that relfection time i had , suddenly someone knocked on my door,
i oppened it and it was my mum =="
then she sayed that she was sorry, i apologied and she apologied! we cleared our doubts! (:
so we are ok now! (: same with my dad (:

anyway, did SOME of my homework and SOME revision lols,
and slacked away.

now my grandparents in my house cause my mum went to visit my aunt [;

omg i keep sneezing! ><

yea better start to do my revision ler cause i have
NOT 1 NOT 2 BUT 3!!!! TESTS TMR! X.X"

-CHINESE TEST!
-E MATHS TEST!
-SCI (PHYSICS) TEST!

woah!! hope i can do well <33

okok bbuias! (:

& yea i hope i cleared some doubts! (:

hi guys! sry i didn;t post yesturday, due to some personal reasons! (:
anyway lets just back foward a little and its 8/4/08 today (:
okok? so its tuesday today XD

soo in the morning i woke up at 7.45 today soooo shiok! :D
cause like tuesday can always wake up late and its a short day but normally i cant cause got red cross heng today dun have morning traning.
so i make up some of the lost for my sleep (:

oh ya!
SHOUTOUT : HAPPY BDAY MR SCOTT LAW! YOUR 15 GRATS! =DD hahas (:

anyway haha, today nothing much lols..
mr tuang sure got his voice back today,, loud as he used to be.

oh ya! today never had POA test in the end - BOOKS OF ORIGINAL ENTRY
mr tuang said all of us will fail if we had the test, cause no one understand a thing about the topic LOL & he didin;t teach us it was suppose to be a self revision thing lols.

then had red cross training, omg luh so little ppl come, =.="
train train train
dunno why but i screwed up some parts of it.
maybe my evil twin took over me for awile haha xP

went back home, DID NOT TALK TO MY PARENTS WHATSOEVER!

then went to sleep.

really short day today o.O

bb~

(p.s - this is the first part of my post to make up for yst)

lols, HIIESSSSS ;DD (:
today was like a nice cool day then it turned into some bitch day! ):

at sch, typical day.
had history test heng it was a open book test LOL, wah if not i die.
so i managed to complete the paper cause my textbook alot of notes ;X
haha x\ , seriously dam heng lah!

nothing much today. ate fried rice for lunch, OMG! the rice sooo little compared to last time then jerald told me is because of the rising prices. then i'm like OHH... LOL. hahas yea la quite true, the prices so high lah! TT
one day i think singapore will have rice replaced with potatoes ;O

lol talked with wen ping till i reached home. the topic was about hima and he coming from malaysia haha.

anyway, went back home andd then started to do my work, did alot then rewarded myself with a mini nap :D
during my nap my mum knocked on my door and say i go to my popo house to bring my popo something, i was like dam -0- cause half way interupted TT

anyway still dam sleep .. zzz... i walked to my popo house LOL! guess wad?
i met mdm rohaya on the way haha. i didn't even see her, cause i was like dam sleep LOL. then she said "hi gene" then i looked up and like MADAM ROHAYA!! , then i said "er... er.. er.. hi mdm rohaya" -still in shock haha! xD then both of us walked off it was just like a 1min see each other kind of thing.

reached my popo house and met my small ayi, haha passed the thing to my popo and recieved some food and lots of drink ahha.
....... then i visited my big ayi room,, haix i really do miss her. shes still in the hospital and went i came to the room and look at everything i kind of cried cause i really wad will happen if she passes on. i suddenly remembered all the good times we had and the bad times too. where sometimes she would be in her room munching chips and passing me a packet and then she opens sweets and then passing it to me haha. then we would share and share and eat and eat during the 9pm channel 8 show. i really hope a mirical will happen, my popo house really seems wierd cause ayi was not there. haiz its just too empty ):
sob sob ): & oh damit! tears are swelling up in my eyes now )':

oh well, lord pls bless ayi and take sufferings away from her ):

anyway,, sobs,,,

i came back home and just layed myself of the sofa wanting to watch the TYRA BANKS SHOW.

then my mum asked me to take in the clothes JUST AFTER coming BACK home. wth lah, so i brought in the clothes, then i unpecked one gala then she say dunid to unpech then i was like holding clothes in one hand and holding the gala in the other hand , so i asked her to PLEASE help me. she sayed no and then started getting angry and brought in my SLC big huha thing again.. zzz she ALWAYS brings up my SLC thing. she is like ~@!~!@!$@%^$%&^&(&)*()*0 DAMIT!

then i went to my room and then had juice, she demanded an apology, i rolled my eyes at her and sayed sry, at least i said sry wad zzz. better then slapping her on the face and not doing anything. zzz. then she goes like .. go back.
now she never talk to me (who the FUCK cares? =.=") , anyway, i asked her to on the com and i said PLEASE, then she goes like why should i? she dam kp! she obviously wan find trouble lah! CBK. then she sayed why you never say, i freakin said it lah bitch! zzz, then she say now why you wan raise your voice?! wtf? DLK SEH..

anyway after my father bathed, i asked him to on the com..
zzz, i seriously hate my family. they are like ~!@##$^%^*(*(^*(.
are all families like that? or rather should i say are all MUMs like that?
i really wanna ask cause like if let say they are busy or stressed do they take things easy and slowly or b like my mum, anyhow OTOT DL?

haix, now i'm posing and learning my POA at the same time haha.
POA - books of original entry. mr tuang never teach us >< !! then maybe got test tmr. haix i really do wish my entire family dissapered!

anyway ok ok bbuais!
and thanks for tagging guys! (:

sup sup (:

today is a sunday and so its "relax" day.
haha woke up at 7.30 =="
then bathe and reached curch at like 8.35+ , it was suppose to be the 8.30 mass LOL.
i'm always late, maybe its in my blood to be o.O
then met nat, she was waiting for someone i guess then as usual sat by myself :P
after that nat walk pass me, she was like hey why you sitting by yourself?
so she ask me to sit with her (:
thx nat! :D

oh yea!
cat class, today's lesson was about community
& carol & rebecca were the teachers.
had alot of grp discussion (:

yea then we had to talk about the homework which was given, like practically NO ONE DID IT! accept a few haha. i thought about it and like yea... i think i know what i wan my motto to be. :D

TADA~


hope you get the idea lols xP
but yea, the smile thing i got inspired by SAI in naruto shippuden.
he smiles ALL the time and because he got ripped off by his emotions he only knows how to smile and he smiles regardless of what situation he is in.
i think it smiling is the best way to conquer anything (:

oh ya and carol is my facil (:
shes a very nice facil, always sooo cheerful and happy and outgoing,
like as if she never kana negative things, or maybe she has but she never shows it.
now that is wad i call a FANTASTIC FACIL! =D

for the last part, our grp went to some area behind for some "talk-cok-session" lol. xD
it was cool lah, but talked about life.
haha i wanted to say like if you wanna know about my week read this blog, its like advertisisng, but i decided not cause shy >
i think like this year is going to be a fun yea in cat class (:
cause in sec1 & 2 NEVER did they had this.
and in the class now, like they throw cute little animals and must scream out some eeecha or ninja kind of thing. its stupit but cute xP
really starting to enjoy cat class. actually shd la cause its the last year LOL.
with cool facils, cool teaching methods, cool ideas, cool stuffies ,
this year is going to be COOL! (:

and yea, came home and ate a SUPER DUPER HUGE LUNCH! =="
lor mee + bee hoon kuay deow + wanton mee + sparkling wine grape juice
gosh that was alot :O

yea, my parents went to see my aunt (:
and so my grannparents now are in my house taking care of evrything.
i really do love my grandparents, they are like the BEST! =D

lols now nothing much to do except i gota study and do some revision.
& gosh it is hard cause of all the computer in my room and not being able to study ><
better pray the student's prayer it really helps me to calm down and concentrate (=

xDD, ya ..
so thats about it..
OH YES! I FORGOT ONE THING!

:

MR LUKE!! I'M SO SORRY BUT I SERIOUSLY FORGOT WHAT I WANTED TO SAY TO YOU T.T lol i read my sms and post, no clue lehs T_T , but i think is something to do with my labels isit? i dunno >< LOL. but it comfirm have to do something that happened on wed or tues , lols, forgive me luke TT ><

oh yes one final thing :

WORRIES FOR TMR :
- hist test?
-lit quiz ><

MOTIVATION! :
- gota start to FINIISH ALL MY WORK & REVISION
jiayou to me ^^ lord pls help me [:

yay! haha my post became LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG again LOLS!

haha okok bbuais!
{:

HEEEEEEEEEEELOS!! =D

today was super not interesting. seriously.

like, had to do HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK yea! TT
then a little of REVISION REVISION REVISION. omg.

OMG luh! nothing interesting today TT

today had math's tuition (:
learned about 5.1 and revision of trigo 1 & 2
lols, i need ta brush up yea!

anyway, jeth called and said he needed money.
i'm like thats so random LOL.
after dinner, which was like POTATO,SALMON & CABBAGE.
(today was the worst!!! lunch and dinner ever! totally organic and vegeterian! except for the fish la, but still.. NO MEAT?! SOBS! TT)
haha so yea gort his money and did not really met him.
i went to the lift then from 15 come down.
LOL who knows it was GUAN hua and one guy squarting down LOL.
so i just passed guan hua the money for jeth lah lol.
hehe now only need to owe jeth $10 ^_^

then later on i did work.

yea,, then i watched naruto shippuen episode 53 & 54 ,
dam nice lah!! naruto rox! :D woots~!
ppl you should watch it! =)
53 was nice but 54 was like awsome!
54 was like the NEW begining or new chapter where evrything is new and somehow the cartoon also look a LITTLE BIT different haha.
yea but i cant wait fot the nxt one ><
which is 17/4 ==" walaoo but must wait so long T___T
but its worth the wait la ^^

oh ya! just to add ..
SHOUTOUT TIME~ : GRATS ANDY,JERALD,BRYAN LIEU, JIA HONG, WEI JUE FOR GETTING THEIR FOOTDRILL ACCREDITATION BRONZE BADGES ^^ (hope my notes & tips did help) ^.^ but grats ppl.
but this also means another thing, competition will be tough between me, eugene, andy and jerald now..
>< may the one who is best fit the job get it! (:
in case you do not know what i'm talking...
its the footdrill IC ,
i really wanna be the FDIC cause all my rest of the other areas are not that well and i feel that my FD is quite gd (:

but as always,,
IT IS ALWAYS UP TO THE LORD(: HE MAKES WISE DECISIONS (:

i'm munching cranberrys while playing "Ti-tee" now on..
www.viwawa.com hehe its cool :D
and i'm listening to..
beware of the dog by jameila (:
its a nice song yea, you should hear it ..

okok bah,
singhing off...
IMEAN.. X.X" =x
SIGNING OFF (:

hi guys , just to let you know ah!

- my blog will not be dead for the time being, cause i will post evryday unless i cant use com la
- the length of my post depends on how interesting my day was lol.

so nothing interesting today,
i havent pass up my hist WB , DIE! X.X"
today during maths class, ms liu send me out cause i REPLIED too zheng han's "question". dam lame lah!
then haha joel and raphael also got send out. WHY? same reason LOL - ans the question LOL. then jason chew & clifford got sent out fianlly zheng han and clinton got sent out =D

LOL lah! like wad? sending out parade? =="

anyway speaking about parade,
today got LOADS of speech day training today. LOL.
dam sad ah! SC no march pass, oh well ):
but i must do well for this (:
cause like this will be my 3rd year if i do go in speech day =D
today had to like have 2 rehersals. must stand stand, i almost wanted to faint! =O but i endured then thank god got the kannan ru-rus haha then can turn!
move the body! it never felt to turn my body before LOL =\ sick hor?
anyway yea, that was about today's training -> SPEECH DAY TRAINING!

just now ijust watched D.Gray-Man epi 77 (:
hope kanda wins the fight with skin, cause skin is like dam STRONG!!

haha okok yea, thats about today (:
kk bb~
*_*

lol lol,

today it was just like other days.
i don't know why but like i keep sleeping at 12am + and waking up at 6.30am
i'm starting to have more pimples D:
that means i'm super stress haha x.x"
msut start to manage my time ler! 8D

anyway, today like i left house at 7.10 ==" reach sch by 7.23 :D
woah i really do walk fast haha ;p

then today at duty, the senior go "ks" me and sati's work la haha so we slacked abit LOL. then sati's button dropped out, went to buy for him safety pin lol.

anyway mr tuang came back today, but still he kept coughing.
now that is what i call a dedicated teacher ^^
sick still come sch, pro lah sir! :D

today was a little slack day seriously.
oh ya before i touch about the slack part, i got 17.5/20 for POA test ! :D yay lol =x

ook abt the day,
today mrs foong never come, SOOOO HAPPY! =)
cause nooo nagging and screaming & of course holding us back.
haha so today during the 2 FREE PERIODS, i was amazed by cleon and the ppl doing project SMILES haha they showed us magic, WOW! ;O
it was like really pro pro pro! >.<

then it was recess then met up with daws and siang long and then came gabriel (:
we were queing up to buy from the western stall, wah lao super duper longg lah!
after we buy the recess finish ler, so much chiong eat ==" wtf man! D<
i feel good to have morning duty cause like can really meet up with all my friends again! ^^

anyway, then during VE, mr foo asked us to do anything we one lol, so we talk crap lor haha. so another 2 FREE PERIODS.

then bla bla bla.... ,,,, .... ,,,,
(skiped some part)

finish SCH! ;D

yaya haaha! met clement ! ^^ then me and clmt and WP, went for lunch at S-11 , lol me and clmt ate ba cho mee haha then WP ate bandito pocket.
was glad to spend some time with clmt cause never spend time together.
its called FRIENDSHIP TIME! ;D haha and i'm glad we did =)

anyway came back home and like did my work, then i think my sis did someting wrong in sch so my parents were like in super bad mood! D:
then cause i was SOOO engrosed with my work i thne 8pm then eat =X

haiz, then my father & mum started to kaopei, but i think its not their fault la cause they were in a really bad mood ler.
zzz la they keep using me as their punching bag from like young till now D: dam sad la! but they are nice ppl when they are in their happy mmood.
zzz but again they LOVE to KPKB. zzz =="

anyway so now i'm blogging now ;p nothing much ah, tmr got RED CROSS. got speech day,, SIAN LA haha =X , like keep training and training then my body sooo freakin pain cause of yst NAFA! TT. tummy pain, arm pain, back pain wahh!! ><

well i think i gtg ler, cause need to prepare stuff for tmr,, soo bb! (:

*i still am praying for you ahyi, & i still miss you ): hope the lord grants a miracle* haiz,, anyway..

yoz yoz! :D

oh yea! imeen finally works again LOL!

okok about today...

wahh was sooo late! but again LOL, walk by the 5-5-5 rule & came early by 5 min LOL. that means i reached sch by 7.20 ^^ . walk walk walk lols, daniel kor says i walk to fast o.O , maybe i always walk fast someTIMES, but normally i walk fast to sch haha.
i think i have my gong gong's gene cause he walks super fast, & when i try to catch up, i sometimes kana stich, thats how fast he walks LOL!
SUPER GONG GONG! =D

today was the first day of new SLC duty (:
morning duty, late coming, study corner -file , in charge of upper sec file.
wahh today had to note down who was late in the upper sec file lol.
omg my gawd la! so many ppl! i dunno so many ppl late de.
then have to count how many ppl late how many times then if got the number 5 or 7 or 10 or more then they will kana caning haha.
maybe i'm still innocent ;o but i really like dun wan ppl to be canned because of the phobia i had when my dad used to caned me.
but now he doesnt :D
so i re count almost everytime if got alot la then will give the (><) face if got ppl going kana caning!
jiayou lah ppl, dun be late! ><
was super slow today lah, but still i will get use to it then lol be on track :D

then later got PC, during PC was the happy period where we had to make a booklet and had to pass down the booklet so that other ppl will write only GOOD things about us :D thats kinda nice la, it helps to boose morale up, like TOTALLY!
haha after PC i read my booklet, ==" first was like all the well wishes.
then later got.. some ******* in it.
then later all the sentences all got the best wishes about me & ******* LOL! =x

but me and ******* like never talk anymore ler ):
shes sick today, and i hope she really gets well (:
hope we still be together for long LOL. TT

then in PE got NAFA! i seriously dunno why got this lah, i mean it is really tiring and waste time ==" but on the other hand it sometimes is quite fun in SOMEWAY , SOMEHOW LOL. =\ anyway i passed ALL THE stations accept standing broad jump! man i really hate that lah, alot of ppl failed that too but nbm lah since my other stations all pass! :D yay! lols,
nxt nxt week i think would be 2.4 must really jiayou on that! :D

then after PE had POA, mr tuang i heard got 4 days MC, wahh dunno wad happen to the very dedicated POA teacher lah!
GET WELL SOON MY TUANG! still got someore topics to teach haha.
the funny thing was i think the week before, mr tuang said that if we want him dun come sch, he will die then dun come sch LOL.
cause he say he still sick then will still come sch
then all laugh say that he (TOUCHWOOD) die lah.
but obviously that will not the case =]
so ms chua (piggie/vs mr tuang loud voice/ms yeo) lol had some tips for me and clinton. the teachers-wanna-be :D really appreciated it! i will definately take that into account! thx madam! :D

after that bla bla bla skip skip skip,,,
CHINESE! was freakin sleepy lah haha, then thank god she release us early LOL.
like yayyyyyyyyyyy FINALLY she release us early.
but that didn't really count cause had to wait for andy and wenping to go
kopitiaming (:

haha anyway came back quite early today, so started to youtube around here and there ;o then do work ler! :D

oh ya i denise said that she is going to philippines cause
"because... i'm going for youth's for christ international youth's conference! yay. haha. i'm sooo excited. and i'm coming back on monday afternoon! (:"
sry ah lazy LOL!x=

for special denise =) :
anyway~ haha denise i didn't know you were in the grp lol. sounds very big :O
anyway~ have fun there! :D will pray for you to be safe! :D
&& remember to tell me ALL about it ok? hahas. have fun and good luck~ =D

hahas (: okok, gota start to do work ler,,
bbuais~ 8D

hmmm..
today is suppose to be april fools day but it did not seem like it haha.
i guess being 15 of 14+ , we really do start of mature...

today nothing much during lesson,
during POA ms ZC came in to our class then we did the POA test.
i think i can pass x.x" but not do well ):
haix, i thought mr tuang came o.O but who cares LOL!

hais, i really am begining to feel the presure of studying nowadays.
maybe my dad's putting presure on me and i'm getting this just-pass type of marks.
jiayou to me ! :D

anyway 91.3fm came to our sch today.. LAME! =="
its just like propaganda la! they propaganda their station, samsung, use of radio.
but their fashion is really cool & nice yea haha esp the "DJ" with the mike & headset but using a lap LOL! then paul twohill sang a song, quite nice la haha.
then some people shouted out "SUX" haha i think ah that like paul twohill publicised emo fashion in singapore, then ppl started to folo it. lols, tats wwad i think.

anyway..
interview time..
we had to like wait wait wait =.=
song long! TT
until like 6pm then my turn?!

haha anyway while waiting , we were like buying drinks and mixing them..
todays lesson by mr. concoctionist ,
1. apple + watermellon is a NONO! it tastes a little like chlorine eww =="
2. honeydew + pineapple EWWW!! TOO THICK! NONO!
3. papaya + orange TOO SOUR?! , after effect taste of papaya? LOL
haha so yea, learn from our mistakes! >so we had to wait rite? haha then got see mr lee and ms cheng and other teachers, jerald said that all the teachers were learning CPR LOL! by who??
by the instructor who tested us for standard first aid course test LOL!
haha nowonder i found him familiar!

then some of us were like .. nananipoopoo ;P , we have our certs :D
lolls lame lahh!! wahh then got some food brought by mr goh! thx sir! :D
the cakes and one blueberry thingy tasted sooo nice :D yum yum =)
okok then after the big HUHA & EXCITEMENT!~

FINALLY WAS MY TURN, the interview was scary and i screw up some of the things. but i managed to ans confidently lah! :D then some sirs were shock that i picked that particular position where they taught i would pick log or admin (no offence ah) but seriously i never thought that some sirs would think so lowly of me. i thought i was good lah! but haix! i must try my best la TT then during my ans, i like off track ALOT and like to talk and talk and talk without coming to the point of just giving loadz of examples abt that point TT haix i dunno how i did lah, but seriously i feel that i did extrememly poorly! D:
and now that i realise i am quite bad in some way in red cross where i am quite of a low standard to some sirs D:
this really brings my morale down ): but hu cares! i must work harder and harder!
frankly speaking ah, the whole red cross big HUHA thingy is really starting to scare me! but honestly speaking, i hope that the interview changed some of the sirs opinion on me >< =(

after the interview i had this dam wierld feeling about it. like super duper uneasy and super duper unconfident but i actually taught i managed to speak my mind on some issues. >< oh well lols, like again for most things, i live it up to the lord! (: he knows best! hehe xD

then i came back, super tired, had a short nap and did some of my HW, but ah..
elijah say maybe i going to have a re-interview because they never "SHOOT" me enough .. oh lord help me with this hurdle i'm abt to face! ):
anyway now i'm posting and will soon be sleeping..

haha thats it for today,
tatas~ :D

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