HELLO.

alrighty!

oh oh! looking at all the pictures that were taken during the camp!
haha it was just sooo cute! LOLS.
remember and miss the time! (:

Monday there was RED CROSS training.
Foot Drill.
yeah like everyone waas like stoned.
I myself was spastic-ing at one lesson LOL
the cadets didnt even understand what i was saying -.-

Anyway, i just really want our unit to RISE UP!
back back back , long time ago, our unit was like really WOW.
really GOODs.

Now like -.-
WHAT HAPPEN!! oh man! Please really let SGSS RCY unit GO UP AGAIN!
MAKE EVERYONE ENTHU ABOUT IT! ):

OHH WELL..

like OMG, i've been having cravings lately,
like pepper lunch, Auntie Anne, subway many more...
ahhh,, wanna like eat them all (:

haha
yeahh tmr, red cross!
meeting and discussion yeah (:

BYEE

HELLO ALL HOLY PEOPLE (:

hahaha!

feeling really kinda holy.
like OMG, been in church or have done church-related activities for a LONG LONG TIME.
feels good (:
HAHA!

alrighty! My holy day started with saturday!
Went to register, met van, amanda, jasmin, patrick.
yeah.
so the teen facils were being pulled to the room to do rehearsal.
oh, okay only the people involved in the skit had to do rehearsal. haha.

rehearsal went okay (:

After that started the day with a prayer!
AND IT WAS TIME FOR FIRST HOLY COMMUNION CAMP 2008.

Had songs, games, yeah it was preety much fun.
at first was the only teen facil in my YELLOW GROUP (:
kim joined our group!
during break time, bonded with them. it was really cool (:
was treated like a dad or uncle? haha, kept like worrying for them and helping them to do/get things. yeahh.

played another game and then it was time for skit!
yeah i know SKIT.

Skit went well! the lines that i said, were what i really wanted to say!
A small error for me made, but it was actually seen as a joke lols.
yeah so acting was really like funny and stuff like that.

P.S i was an angel.

SO them BEING PRIMARY 2, i was labled as ANGEL. OR ANGEL KOR KOR.
irritating can.
like everyone starts using it, the teens, the children, the facils, the cat class teachers..AHH,, its irritating but funny haha.
Cause i serve as a good impression to the children.
like when i walk pass a few people, they were like LOOK THE ANGEL IS HERE.
>.> LOLs yes i know.

BUT ITS ALL SO FUN (:

Anyway like SKIP SKIP SKIP and we are looking at some paper where they show sins.
whether if we commited them we would put a tick.
i saw the paper and i was like nudging kimberly told her i committed like 25 of 27 sins. WTH right, i'm sooo not holy, then she was like SO SINFULL! LOL.

anyway, time for their first confession.
Gave them advice and stuff!
all so mischevious and naughty but on the other side funny and nice (:
OHOH .. awww.. hahah

ALL OF THE CHILDREN WERE LIKE UBER CUTE (:

OHOH! like managed to get the children call vanessar, AUNTY.
HAHAHAH!~ it was so funny.

Anyway, *skips again* and everything finished,
like it was a really fun day.
no pic though, but all of it would be in my head!
really a memoriable day (:

OHOH! THANKS KIMBERLY FOR BEING SUCHH A GREAT FACIL TOO.

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okay, so like me, van, kim, adriana, patrick were like sticking together.
Went to 7eleven
went for mass
ate dinner
watched the W.O.W drama.

hahah, totally cool.
cause like i always admire natasha that she does church things with her friends.
i dont know but it just seems so nice.

WELL! i;m proud to say that i did it too!
and yeah it feels great to be hanging out with friends you know all doing church related things together! (:

Yeah.

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Said byebye and everyone went back home.
patrick, me and aaron walked to serangoon.
patrick left half way.
i ate hor fun, talking to aaron yeah.

after that went to shop and save followed by macs.
met ryan leong there with his family!
haha.

yeah, then after that went home.

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so TODAY!
ate lunch at popo house.

after that went for the 3pm holy communion mass.
Met Jasmin, amamda, van and kim there.
the mass was all so nice (:

met some of YELLOW GROUP MEMEBERS.
they were screaming and yeah were happy me and kim were there.haha
oh yea! i walked pass right, then again haha children were like, hey thats the angel!
haha it felt irritating but funny? (:

Anyway, after that went with kim and van for grocerry shopping.
laughed a lot there.
and managed to find the things!

after that went home.

yeah and it concludes my really awsome church-related (not?) experience =D

OHOH TMR RED CROSS TRAINING!
JIA YOU!
FIRST DAY - FOOT DRILL.

hohoho [:

alrightyy!
byees (:

HI HI D:

Manage to go out of the house! (AT LAST I KNOW!)
Anyway yeah
went to school on thurs!
-.- did nothing but the job of a QM 2I/C XD.
Clean Up.

LOL.

Yeah, then later at night, there was a skit rehearsal.
Met Matilda at the bustop and walk to church.

MY GOD! Along the way right, there was this like potiana-look-a-like-woman.
staring at us! dam scary can! D:
totally like as if want to kill us liddat.

Anyway, Adriana was at the canteen and 3 of us went to classroom.

Waited.

like dam >.>

Anyway, started and yeah other 3 people came.
so anyway, thank god i'm not the lead LOLs.
was suppose to be, but thank God there was a guy next to me,
had the idea of swopping roles :D
YEAH! and hell yeah! Now i'm a guy who drops his wallet & an Angel LOL.

but comical one (:

Anyway, everything ended at about 10+
Walked halfway with Matilda, said bye!

And yeah that was thurs.

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Today! Jerald could not come to school, so didnt go to school
Met WenPing at Macs.
Dam bored lor ._.

went for printing.

yeah.

came back and sort out all the paperwork, like literally paperwork lor.
bloody so many paper.

yeah.

tmr's theres communion camp!
facilitating and acting! YAYness? (:

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Today, wanna maybe continue from the last post about things on my mind.
Thankfully after i blogged out a whole chunk from my mind! I felt lil better (:
TEEHEES.

CHILDHOOD.

My childhood!
really remembered so many things.

like dugged into my childhood box!
So many nice things i missed.

like i changed environment i think like 3 times ler.
looking at it.

like from hanoi to SAPS then to SGSS

so many transitions i guess.
what i really felt was like to be able to be stuck in my past!
Maybe the reason why i want to be in my pass is really all my happy moments are there? Yeah. its like escaping from reality! Yeah thats what i want ):
but now facing the present, i just wanna stop thinking about this too much.

too many good memories lay in the past i guess.
Really wish could re-live them again.
OH WELL.

oh so now maybe a little statistics about me and the relationship i'm having with my family.

FATHER - OKAY OKAY.
1ST SISTER - OKAY OKAY, BUT SOMETIMES IRRITATING!
MOTHER - MIDDLE - IRRITATING AND OKAY OKAY.
2ND SISTER - IRRITATING.

-,-

YEAH.
Anyway haix about everything!

BYEE (:

Hello ALL people-who-are-spastic&random-like-Gene (:

LOL -.-

Anyway, last night talked to luke to all the way 3+am (:
YAYness!
I think it could stretch because we were like on the topic of debate, then my mum came into the room, caught me in action, asked me to put down the phone.

dam zzz lor.

like why cant i do wad i one? i know you are concerned but still, i know GENE is tiny BUT he is FIFTEEN , TEEEEEN eh ):

so bloody much control -.-

Anyway, SORRY LUKE! cut our conver! ):

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Alrighty my purpose for blogging today is i really want to blog whats on my mind.
so many things i know.
don't know how much GENE wants to reveal whats on his best but he'll try (:
cause its going to be emotional! :O

Well, first thing thats on my mind is studies.

STUDIES! Os are like less than a year!
OMG! i;m soooo scared. like totally. I;ve no motivation to study whatsoever.
TOTALLY NOTHING! STONNING ALL THE WAY. like I WANT TO STUDY BUT I CANT.
NO gan jue at all. totally. very irritating can! want to study but never study!
i want to study! although its HOLS like a lot of people all i know is studying or is going to study. GENE NEEDS TO STUDY! SO WORRYING ABOUT Os. ):

Next thing is DEATH.

fucking scary can ): I keep like hearing about cancer hear or cancer there. or super duper scary diseases.
like after my aunt's death (which i still have memories of her like constantly flowing in me, i keep crying yeah. i'm such a cry baby )': BUT OH WELL)
i have this like reaction towards death or namely cancer. its really freaks me out and breaks me down whenever i hear or see people having it. its just so cruel!
and like my sister (first one) is like so pale loooking- its really makes me scared.
DEATH! why do we have to die!
why cant we just like have this "die" button, when we wanna die, then die lor!
so bad! ):

YEAH AND TO EVERYONE I KNOW AND LOVE! I DONT WANT YOU TO DIE TOO! like another close relative or (friend) that dies i think i would really like break down.

i;m already like so wobbly, slowly picking myself up from the what i saw and heard about my aunt.

OH FREAK! tears are starting to come again, i just miss my AUNT SO MUCH. ILOVEYOU AYI! I STILL MISS YOU AND ALL THE BEST-EST TIMES WE SHARED! ):

omg..okay the third thing its FAMILY.
like i've been having relationship problems between me and my mother and sister.
its really irritating.
honestly.
cause my sister is this little girl WHO IS FUCKING NOT INNOCENT. where my mum is so FUCKING PROTECTIVE over her.
so i get into trouble becausea of that.
Arnt parents suppose to like love all? and not be bias. i really do like symapathise with all those first borns out there. we all should have a common thing I THINK. >.>
but anyway, like its really hard for me to keep my relationship like quarrels are so recent, we quarrel over the SLIGHTEST thing and she is like so particular about EVERY SINGLE THING. and she keeps like comparing me to a typical vision of what parents want their child to be. its so irritating. cant she like tell that EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT. i'm not the child she want and so like FACE IT B!TCH.
i guess because of all these competitions between my siblings and my parents.
it really stops everything! like communication and a lot of things. the reuslt is where when i be with them, i feel awkward! how sad is that! i just wish my ayi was here so i could really tell her everythign! ):
oh on a side note, i've no idea but why like all past memories are coming to me so much! like memories with my ayi and stuff like that, when i was really happy with my parents, do i desire that too much? past is past, but sometimes past could be fantasy. ahh...

Anyway, the forth thing would be freedom!
everyone wants freedom! i want freedom! oh yeah! so its like i cant really go out, or i've come to a point that i feel scared to tell my parents that i have camp or i'm going out because like response has always really like.. WHY!! YOU NEED STUDY YOU KNOW!!
its so fucking irritating.
pisses me off yeah
so i really like want to do everything with myself! I feel like SO MUCH BETTER doing things by myself and stuff like that. so i want them to be GONE. live in a house by myself! so much i yearn for that! haiz! so like my only escape to fantasy land is by reading books, blogging all my feelings out, going for outinngs, chattings and do my red cross stuff yeah. escaping from life! thats what i really need and want!

OHH...!!

I'M NOT sure what i want to say anymore! SHIT i cant remember LOL!
BUT YEAH
shall end here for now.
roughly that must be the things that really occupy a huge portion of my head currently thats why i really did blog about it.

IRRITATING YES IRRITATING! so much tension and no trust within my family and me.

><

alrighty byee!
but hell yeah i managed to blog this!
feel a TINY TINY LITTLE BIT BETTER (:

cant wait for tmr! going to sch and do red cross! LOL!

(:

i need to be with my SPASTIC BUDDY to feel and get my SPASTIC level HIGH again ):

I NEED OUTINGS AND LIKE EVERYTHING TO BE MY WAY! ):
than maybe i'll feel beter.

OH OH OH WELL ):

tiny and evil GENE is BORED
but yet he still can't go out ):
how sad is that.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I LOVE THE NEW BLOG SKIN.
ITS SO ME! (:
YAY!
HIP HIP HURRAY
HIP HIP HURRAY!

:D

OH YES here's my second post of the day.

really been like thinking of a lot of things.

like

STUDIES
RED CROSS
DEATH
FRIENDS
FAMILY.

SO MANY ALL IN MY HEAD, ITS LIKE REALLY FUSTRATING.

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

hello hello!
have not been bloggin yes i know o_o

okay many many things to blog about!

outing with luke

Well, 30/10/08, celebrated my birthday with luke.
Was like late :x

met luke at the serangoon area where he said he sang for the minister when he was P3? hahah.

okay so he was like where you wanna go?, as usual my reply I DONT KNOW.
Honestly, i am a slow person. Must think one okayy D:

Anyway, we went to MRT, go habourfront.
haha luke has this "talent" , like bloody hell.


My Chain broke, so he brought me to this shop to get a chain.
OHOH!


Anyway, after being pissed of by some people at the shop, keep standing infront of the chains, HOW TO GET MY CHAIN?!
irritating -.-

Anyway, went to ARRCADE! D:
oh MY GOD, I AM NOT AN ARCADE PERSON FOR REAL.

ALL THE ALL SO FREAKING GAMES - ALL LOSE TO LUKE T.T

Heres a pic of me NOT KNOWING HOW TO PLAY THIS FREAKING GAME. CANT EVEN COMPLETE STAGE ONE CAN!



after that we went to the jap shop! its freaking nice! hahaha.
and OMG! we played, took 2 giant lolipops and hit each other :P
and omg! everything fell (all the soft toys)
then we ran away! haha so bad lar!

heres tiny GENE with some toy?



alrighty! So we went to luke's house!
TOTALLY NICE HOUSE!

OH YES! this is one of luke's dad's motocycles!
FREAK HELL ITS COOL.

AND ITS TINY GENE ON IT! :D


yeah! so luke's house was simply AMAZING! its one of the dream houses i dreamt of! :D
theres 3 of us!
ME, FELIX - THE FREKAING CUTE BLACK CAT, luke


haha, so yeah, played some tower of hanoi thing!
confusing! but i managed to do it! (with luke screaming ;x)
hahah!

Felt hungry so we cooked dinner!
YUMMY LOR! :D



after that we went to VIVO.
and THANK YOU LUKE FOR MY PRESSIE - CONTACTS :D

and his dad's driver drove us back to my house!

THANK YOU LUKE FOR THAT OH SO FANTASTIC BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION DAY (:

okay, so here's part 2,
so i went back, and like my parents were dao-ing me.
and were so angry that i came back late ALTHOUGH IT WAS ONLY 7.45PM.
-.- cause i said i were to come back at 7pm. :x

BUTT.
still!!
must dao until like that meh? wtf.

Anyway, so COLD WAR WITH MY PARENTS STARTED.
lasted all the way for 3 days! (:
Actually cold war felt really good, cause NO FUCKING FAMILY IN MY LIFE!
I JUST HATE MY FAMILY.

anyway, the cold war stopped because my father started shouting at me, saying i did not respect him and stuff -,- WTF, they started the cold war by not talking to me and it becomes my fault because i never talk?

-,-

irritating YES I KNOW.

Anyway, COLD WAR STOPPED.

Part 3 now!
Went out with luke again on 7/11,
HIS BIRTHDAY IS APPROACHING! :O

Anyway, i was late again haha.
TOTALLY LIKE LATE ;X

sorry luke! hahah!
Anyway, went to make I/C
and thank god everything was like fast fast fast. yeah right lol.,
took pic, did the I/C.

its a okay experience haha.

anyway, went to marina square.

OH YES I SAW ACTORS AT THE BOWLING ALLEY! WITH MY EYES! HAHA AND NO PIC FOR YOU ;x
~_~ TOTALLY COol lols.

oh yes me and luke went to play aracde.
haha AGAIN, YES AGAIN! won me in all the games -,-

played a lil max tune! :O

After that walked and walked, so tired ah.

ATE AT YUKI YAKI!
OMG! SUPER DUPER DELICIOUS!
AND YES I ADMIT, I TOOK TOO MUCH FOOD -.-
and the ICE CREAM! AHHH HAHA SO FUN!
luke has the pics!
haha.

after that went to luke's serangoon house.
taught me how to wear contacts
and gave me advice about things.
it really helped but i say STEP BY STEP (:

okayy? (:

and END!

SO TODAY! went to cat class
WITH MY CONTACTS! I LOVED IT :P
although one eye gave me freaking loads of problem! Need to try again lols.

went with mass with yangtse, joshua popped by.

hahah

SIANz, now at home so boring.

BUT! cant wait for all the camps and outings and red cross and wearing of the contacts xP so sexy :D

YEAH!

ALRIGHTY BYE BYE (: